I haven't written a blog in a while. I don't know why for sure. Tonight I took a long bubble bath with wine and then felt like just writing.
I often wonder why people hold back and don't follow their dreams. Why do people procrastinate and not just do what they truly want in their heart?
They always say every day is a gift because it is the PRESENT. A Present. Each and every day you have the option to make it amazing or make it crap. Why on earth would you pick the second option? I fully love people who follow their dreams and make things happen despite what anyone else thinks or says.
I think if you have love and belief you can get through anything and you can do anything you want. That support is there and that can make or break you.
I totally get how people can grow up and things happen and that "hinders them". I have been there and done that. I have also continued to grow and just have the attitude. SO WHAT??? What don't kill you makes you stronger! Live as though each day is your last. Your past does not have anything to do with your present or future unless you let it. The only thing your past should have on you is your learning experience You should learn from your mistakes. Chalk up the bad, move forward. You never can go back in time.
There is many avenues I have seen where people hold back. Obviously because of my profession, I see one on a daily basis that ties in really with two subjects. Weight Loss and Dating. Thousands of people comment on our face book page and inquire and they want to lose weight but they don't want to do the work. So simple!!! It just baffles me especially people with health conditions already. The world is such a sick place with processed food. That is a whole entire new blog. Dating ties in because everyone wants to be on top of their game with looks and such. The only person who stands in their way is themselves. Truly. It's plain and simple. If you want someone or something go after it! If you give 0%, your getting 0%.
Another area I see people hating their careers, they want better for themselves and their family and just stay because it is "easy". Push yourself. Apply. Go big or go home. I have ONLY a high school graduate degree and have managed a successful and award winning weight loss center, been on top of sales charts--- because I believed in myself and believed in my clients and made it amazing!!! I have been in sales since age 18. Some talents can't be taught. If your amazing.....your amazing!!!! If you don't have the support system, fake it til you make it. If you want to go to college and haven't. Apply for a grant, your never too old to make your dreams come true.
I believe in positivity. I believe in being happy. I believe unicorns should fly among rainbows and all people should be smiling and singing along to their country music with a whiskey and water in hand or perhaps a glass of wine.
Thanks to the people who loved and believed in me. That means a lot. That is my backbone and support. I love you all for being the people you are that make a mark in my life. Small gestures are never gone un-noticed. May God bless you always.
Tuesday, November 25, 2014
Tuesday, March 25, 2014
If I die young...
Nobody likes to think about death. I'm totally open to meeting my maker and Lord. I thought today I should definitely write a blog about what if I did die. Is there things I want to happen? Yes!
Here is my songs I would like:
I am Jesus Little Lamb
Amazing Grace
How great thou art by Vince Gill & Carrie Underwood
I can only imagine by Mercy Me
I would love people to sign and write a personal message on my casket
I don't want buried with my wedding ring, I want my daughters to have it. I want a piece of yarn tied around that ring. A promise never ends.
I would love double colored roses, red and yellow. Just like the ones I got on Valentines Day. Red and Yellow roses stand for love and friendship. I feel like this is what I'm about.
I want my bucket list shared of all the things I got accomplished. This is located on my blog.
I want the poem THE DASH by Linda Ellis on the back of my program and on the back of our/my stone.
I want my stone to have two angels with the center being a heart.
Here is my songs I would like:
I am Jesus Little Lamb
Amazing Grace
How great thou art by Vince Gill & Carrie Underwood
I can only imagine by Mercy Me
I would love people to sign and write a personal message on my casket
I don't want buried with my wedding ring, I want my daughters to have it. I want a piece of yarn tied around that ring. A promise never ends.
I would love double colored roses, red and yellow. Just like the ones I got on Valentines Day. Red and Yellow roses stand for love and friendship. I feel like this is what I'm about.
I want my bucket list shared of all the things I got accomplished. This is located on my blog.
I want the poem THE DASH by Linda Ellis on the back of my program and on the back of our/my stone.
I want my stone to have two angels with the center being a heart.
Monday, March 17, 2014
True love
August 31, 2013. In walks a smiley guy who orders an Ultra beer at the bar I bartend. Several months pass, I find out this guy is Jeff, the wonderful man I have been dating officially since December 9th, 2013. He has always smiled and been happy and inspirational and creative and such a blessing in my daughters and my life.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cHH-i38iprg I love you this big by Scotty McCreery. I think he absolutely wrote this song from my heart to describe my feelings for Jeff.
We have had so many firsts together and talks of life long dreams and hopes. I couldn't imagine anyone else that completes me like he has. Our hands fit together just perfect. Our kiss is completely perfect. I still have butterflies when I get to see him and I never thought I would find that in my entire life. I always thought those feelings were only in the movies, I gave up actually and just decided I was going to be alone forever. I have always had on my bucket list, marry my soul mate. I think we definitely are that. We never have to say a word and we just love each other completely.
Jeff has my heart completely. I never have laughed so much or loved someone so much. I now own pink camo and find myself looking at that and always planning things with him all the time and all summer and letting my hair down. I noticed the other day, I'm not so crazy to make sure the house is completely spotless and I get so excited to see him that I just relax. He loves me the way I am. I love all the little things he does with me and for the girls and I.
I love going out driving the country with him, or watching TV with him or movies or making supper with him, just everything. Even playing ball with his dogs and him just makes me smile.
I think before everyone hindered my personality which is a positive, fun, outgoing, loving life, family oriented person and never just accepted me the way I was and loved those things about me and wanted to be with me for those reasons. I feel so loved now and valued as a person and I'm so grateful for that. Our three month anniversary was March 9th, 2013. I was going to write a blog that day about us or him that day, but then I didn't want to be so traditional and wanted to write a blog from the bottom of my heart.
I don't have the perfect words to say sometimes. I just have this overwhelming feeling to start writing a blog and today I wanted it about him. Your days are always counted. I heard a song today from a friends funeral. It just really makes you think how precious life is and how short it can be, no certainties ever. Seems like a lot of young people have died lately and it's so unexpected. I never want a day to go by that anyone in my life ever had to question how much I loved them or how special they were/are to me.
I'm super mushy, true. I love with my entire heart and I'm glad I have someone that loves me back the same way. Thank you Jeff for loving me and my daughters and being you. I will love you now, and forever. You had me at hello.....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cHH-i38iprg I love you this big by Scotty McCreery. I think he absolutely wrote this song from my heart to describe my feelings for Jeff.
We have had so many firsts together and talks of life long dreams and hopes. I couldn't imagine anyone else that completes me like he has. Our hands fit together just perfect. Our kiss is completely perfect. I still have butterflies when I get to see him and I never thought I would find that in my entire life. I always thought those feelings were only in the movies, I gave up actually and just decided I was going to be alone forever. I have always had on my bucket list, marry my soul mate. I think we definitely are that. We never have to say a word and we just love each other completely.
Jeff has my heart completely. I never have laughed so much or loved someone so much. I now own pink camo and find myself looking at that and always planning things with him all the time and all summer and letting my hair down. I noticed the other day, I'm not so crazy to make sure the house is completely spotless and I get so excited to see him that I just relax. He loves me the way I am. I love all the little things he does with me and for the girls and I.
I love going out driving the country with him, or watching TV with him or movies or making supper with him, just everything. Even playing ball with his dogs and him just makes me smile.
I think before everyone hindered my personality which is a positive, fun, outgoing, loving life, family oriented person and never just accepted me the way I was and loved those things about me and wanted to be with me for those reasons. I feel so loved now and valued as a person and I'm so grateful for that. Our three month anniversary was March 9th, 2013. I was going to write a blog that day about us or him that day, but then I didn't want to be so traditional and wanted to write a blog from the bottom of my heart.
I don't have the perfect words to say sometimes. I just have this overwhelming feeling to start writing a blog and today I wanted it about him. Your days are always counted. I heard a song today from a friends funeral. It just really makes you think how precious life is and how short it can be, no certainties ever. Seems like a lot of young people have died lately and it's so unexpected. I never want a day to go by that anyone in my life ever had to question how much I loved them or how special they were/are to me.
I'm super mushy, true. I love with my entire heart and I'm glad I have someone that loves me back the same way. Thank you Jeff for loving me and my daughters and being you. I will love you now, and forever. You had me at hello.....
Thursday, January 2, 2014
WHAT IS LOVE?
I posted today on facebook asking what people thought of this subject: What is LOVE? I had a lot of people send me private messages saying this is a hard question to answer. I had some people answer the question with answers that I have thought myself.
I love the bible verse: 1 Corinthians 13:4-7
4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
I know what love is not: it is not hurtful, it is not controlling, it is not violent, it's not manipulating, it is not lust. Love is a feeling you cannot explain in words. It's a magic that you can feel. It's that feeling of always wanting the best for another person wither it be your family, friends or significant other and you just can't make it go away even if you tried. Have you ever had an experience where you felt like a person had made a bad decision and you iqnored them and no matter what everything you did and seen made you think of that person? There is a reason....unconditional love.
I will fully without a doubt admit I have made some poor choices in life and very poor choices, ones to which I thought never me nor anyone else could forgive. God did. I think so many times I have prayed about the same subjects and forgiveness that God should just move onto someone else. I should be out of "Bambi it is okay, I forgive you's". I know I am forgiven.
I have reflected about my life so much in the past 2 years and especially past 6 months. I have pushed myself into working so much and never being alone so I do not have time to deep think by myself. I deep down am a person who cares and loves people and the world and never would want to purposely infect pain or hurt on anyone. I, at times have cared so much about other people I shouldn't, even more than myself or what is right, that I had lost some of my family at one point. When you lose the people you care most about, your life stops and you just think and analyze. Unconditional love never goes away. Ever.
When you are all alone at night and day and inside your own head, you get it figured out. You know the best thing is to love others, even though they have hurt you. You need to be an image of God in that aspect. Love others like you want loved back.
I know I have helped others through troubles they have went through. My biggest obstacle in my life was myself. Knowing that has helped me help others, without a doubt. It was because I never loved myself enough or maybe at times at all. Then....I finally got it! The saying if you can't love yourself, you can't love anyone else. That is very much true. When you finally love yourself. Your world changes. When you love yourself, when you value yourself. When you love your imperfections and the good and your willing to be open and honest and say "Here I am world". This is me, take me or leave me. I'm totally fine with either. Your ready to love.
I love the world. I love the people in it. I feel like I will always be a positive motivating person that will always think of the glass mostly full. I absolutely want to be a great mother and friend, daughter, sister, and wife someday.
I am very thankful for the people who believed in me and loved me so much.
Katelin, my baby sister and I have been inseperable since she was born. That is a bond I will always treasure. I know at times I have done many things for her and thought of her more than myself that thinking back now almost brings tears to my eyes. There was a huge time in her life, I wasn't there for her, like I wanted. She in a way feels like a daughter of mine. I have so many great and wonderful memories of her and I. They will continue forever. You never can take away that bond, no matter what.
I love my sisters, Katelin and Miranda and Amy and my brother Brandon. We all have been through good and bad times to create who we are as adults today. That will always remain. My heart is full of love for all of them, that will always be. Nothing will ever change that.
I have so many great friends, I do not even want to name them specifically because I know myself and I will leave out a name and seriously I have so many great friends that have been there for me in one way or another and I just will always treasure all my friendships til the day I die.
I know my parents went through a bad divorce. No matter what you have unconditional love for both your parents. Both of my parents have been there for me at different times in my life. I will never pick. I love them both.
I have grandparents in heaven who I admired so much. So much! I loved them all and learned so much about how to treat others and how to love others and how to live life. Wearing a smile. You never have to act older, you live out each day as much as you can to show love to others, those memories I will never forget. Ever.
I have aunts and uncles and cousins and Jerrod's (girls dad) Grandmother who is like my own. A huge family in one way or another. You don't have to be blood to be family. You just need love.
I have great coworkers at my jobs I have. I have absolute positive people in my life that makes me feel so blessed and lucky each and every day. Every word of encouragement and every smile and laugh means so much to me.
I have the most amazing man in my life, Jeff. I finally listened to people time and time again do not look for love, it will find you. I absolutely love Jeff. He is genuine and sweet and loves life and has a smile on his face at all times. Loves me with makeup or not. Laughs and holds me tight. Listens and cuddles. He has a great outlook on life and a huge heart. I honestly say this with this with the most sincerity, I never could imagine my life without him by my side.
My children, wow. Such a love. Never a word. I never realized how much you could possibly love a human being til I held those precious angels in my arms. I have several songs dedicated to them. I melt when they do so many sweet and thoughtful things. I know now how fast of a temper I have when someone mess's with my children, I can get fired up in a 1.2 second. I guard them and their hearts so much. I will always put them before myself. Always. Their innocence and love is the most amazing thing I have ever witnessed.
Love is a word that can be said or felt, it can be so different to many people. I know what it means to me. I choose to love through out my life. I always want to do the right thing and say things to people that need to hear them. I want others to know they matter and they are important. I caught some flack when I said this saying before, but honestly I don't care. I feel this way. I will live as though each day as though it's my last. I never want to go to bed without saying what I want off my chest. I want to know nobody will ever doubt how I feel about them.
To all of the people who have made such am impact in my life. I LOVE YOU! You know how you are.
Love Always,
Bambi
I love the bible verse: 1 Corinthians 13:4-7
4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
I know what love is not: it is not hurtful, it is not controlling, it is not violent, it's not manipulating, it is not lust. Love is a feeling you cannot explain in words. It's a magic that you can feel. It's that feeling of always wanting the best for another person wither it be your family, friends or significant other and you just can't make it go away even if you tried. Have you ever had an experience where you felt like a person had made a bad decision and you iqnored them and no matter what everything you did and seen made you think of that person? There is a reason....unconditional love.
I will fully without a doubt admit I have made some poor choices in life and very poor choices, ones to which I thought never me nor anyone else could forgive. God did. I think so many times I have prayed about the same subjects and forgiveness that God should just move onto someone else. I should be out of "Bambi it is okay, I forgive you's". I know I am forgiven.
I have reflected about my life so much in the past 2 years and especially past 6 months. I have pushed myself into working so much and never being alone so I do not have time to deep think by myself. I deep down am a person who cares and loves people and the world and never would want to purposely infect pain or hurt on anyone. I, at times have cared so much about other people I shouldn't, even more than myself or what is right, that I had lost some of my family at one point. When you lose the people you care most about, your life stops and you just think and analyze. Unconditional love never goes away. Ever.
When you are all alone at night and day and inside your own head, you get it figured out. You know the best thing is to love others, even though they have hurt you. You need to be an image of God in that aspect. Love others like you want loved back.
I know I have helped others through troubles they have went through. My biggest obstacle in my life was myself. Knowing that has helped me help others, without a doubt. It was because I never loved myself enough or maybe at times at all. Then....I finally got it! The saying if you can't love yourself, you can't love anyone else. That is very much true. When you finally love yourself. Your world changes. When you love yourself, when you value yourself. When you love your imperfections and the good and your willing to be open and honest and say "Here I am world". This is me, take me or leave me. I'm totally fine with either. Your ready to love.
I love the world. I love the people in it. I feel like I will always be a positive motivating person that will always think of the glass mostly full. I absolutely want to be a great mother and friend, daughter, sister, and wife someday.
I am very thankful for the people who believed in me and loved me so much.
Katelin, my baby sister and I have been inseperable since she was born. That is a bond I will always treasure. I know at times I have done many things for her and thought of her more than myself that thinking back now almost brings tears to my eyes. There was a huge time in her life, I wasn't there for her, like I wanted. She in a way feels like a daughter of mine. I have so many great and wonderful memories of her and I. They will continue forever. You never can take away that bond, no matter what.
I love my sisters, Katelin and Miranda and Amy and my brother Brandon. We all have been through good and bad times to create who we are as adults today. That will always remain. My heart is full of love for all of them, that will always be. Nothing will ever change that.
I have so many great friends, I do not even want to name them specifically because I know myself and I will leave out a name and seriously I have so many great friends that have been there for me in one way or another and I just will always treasure all my friendships til the day I die.
I know my parents went through a bad divorce. No matter what you have unconditional love for both your parents. Both of my parents have been there for me at different times in my life. I will never pick. I love them both.
I have grandparents in heaven who I admired so much. So much! I loved them all and learned so much about how to treat others and how to love others and how to live life. Wearing a smile. You never have to act older, you live out each day as much as you can to show love to others, those memories I will never forget. Ever.
I have aunts and uncles and cousins and Jerrod's (girls dad) Grandmother who is like my own. A huge family in one way or another. You don't have to be blood to be family. You just need love.
I have great coworkers at my jobs I have. I have absolute positive people in my life that makes me feel so blessed and lucky each and every day. Every word of encouragement and every smile and laugh means so much to me.
I have the most amazing man in my life, Jeff. I finally listened to people time and time again do not look for love, it will find you. I absolutely love Jeff. He is genuine and sweet and loves life and has a smile on his face at all times. Loves me with makeup or not. Laughs and holds me tight. Listens and cuddles. He has a great outlook on life and a huge heart. I honestly say this with this with the most sincerity, I never could imagine my life without him by my side.
My children, wow. Such a love. Never a word. I never realized how much you could possibly love a human being til I held those precious angels in my arms. I have several songs dedicated to them. I melt when they do so many sweet and thoughtful things. I know now how fast of a temper I have when someone mess's with my children, I can get fired up in a 1.2 second. I guard them and their hearts so much. I will always put them before myself. Always. Their innocence and love is the most amazing thing I have ever witnessed.
Love is a word that can be said or felt, it can be so different to many people. I know what it means to me. I choose to love through out my life. I always want to do the right thing and say things to people that need to hear them. I want others to know they matter and they are important. I caught some flack when I said this saying before, but honestly I don't care. I feel this way. I will live as though each day as though it's my last. I never want to go to bed without saying what I want off my chest. I want to know nobody will ever doubt how I feel about them.
To all of the people who have made such am impact in my life. I LOVE YOU! You know how you are.
Love Always,
Bambi
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