WHAT IS LOVE?

I posted today on facebook asking what people thought of this subject: What is LOVE? I had a lot of people send me private messages saying this is a hard question to answer. I had some people answer the question with answers that I have thought myself.

I love the bible verse: 1 Corinthians 13:4-7
⁴ Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵ It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶ Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷ It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

I know what love is not: it is not hurtful, it is not controlling, it is not violent, it's not manipulating, it is not lust. Love is a feeling you cannot explain in words. It's a magic that you can feel. It's that feeling of always wanting the best for another person wither it be your family, friends or significant other and you just can't make it go away even if you tried. Have you ever had an experience where you felt like a person had made a bad decision and you iqnored them and no matter what everything you did and seen made you think of that person? There is a reason....unconditional love. 

I will fully without a doubt admit I have made some poor choices in life and very poor choices, ones to which I thought never me nor anyone else could forgive. God did. I think so many times I have prayed about the same subjects and forgiveness that God should just move onto someone else. I should be out of "Bambi it is okay, I forgive you's". I know I am forgiven.

I have reflected about my life so much in the past 2 years and especially past 6 months. I have pushed myself into working so much and never being alone so I do not have time to deep think by myself.  I deep down am a person who cares and loves people and the world and never would want to purposely infect pain or hurt on anyone. I, at times have cared so much about other people I shouldn't,  even more than myself or what is right, that I had lost some of my family at one point. When you lose the people you care most about, your life stops and you just think and analyze. Unconditional love never goes away. Ever.

When you are all alone at night and day and inside your own head, you get it figured out. You know the best thing is to love others, even though they have hurt you. You need to be an image of God in that aspect. Love others like you want loved back.  

I know I have helped others through troubles they have went through. My biggest obstacle in my life was myself. Knowing that has helped me help others, without a doubt. It was because I never loved myself enough or maybe at times at all. Then....I finally got it!  The saying if you can't love yourself, you can't love anyone else. That is very much true. When you finally love yourself. Your world changes. When you love yourself, when you value yourself. When you love your imperfections and the good and your willing to be open and honest and say "Here I am world". This is me, take me or leave me. I'm totally fine with either. Your ready to love. 

I love the world. I love the people in it. I feel like I will always be a positive motivating person that will always think of the glass mostly full. I absolutely want to be a great mother and friend, daughter, sister, and wife someday. 

I am very thankful for the people who believed in me and loved me so much. 

Katelin, my baby sister and I have been inseperable since she was born. That is a bond I will always treasure. I know at times I have done many things for her and thought of her more than myself that thinking back now almost brings tears to my eyes. There was a huge time in her life, I wasn't there for her, like I wanted. She in a way feels like a daughter of mine. I have so many great and wonderful memories of her and I. They will continue forever. You never can take away that bond, no matter what. 

I love my sisters, Katelin and Miranda and Amy and my brother Brandon. We all have been through good and bad times to create who we are as adults today. That will always remain. My heart is full of love for all of them, that will always be. Nothing will ever change that.

I have so many great friends, I do not even want to name them specifically because I know myself and I will leave out a name and seriously I have so many great friends that have been there for me in one way or another and I just will always treasure all my friendships til the day I die. 

I know my parents went through a bad divorce. No matter what you have unconditional love for both your parents. Both of my parents have been there for me at different times in my life. I will never pick. I love them both. 

I have grandparents in heaven who I admired so much. So much! I loved them all and learned so much about how to treat others and how to love others and how to live life. Wearing a smile. You never have to act older, you live out each day as much as you can to show love to others, those memories I will never forget. Ever. 

I have aunts and uncles and cousins and Jerrod's (girls dad) Grandmother who is like my own. A huge family in one way or another. You don't have to be blood to be family. You just need love.

I have great coworkers at my jobs I have. I have absolute positive people in my life that makes me feel so blessed and lucky each and every day. Every word of encouragement and every smile and laugh means so much to me.

I have the most amazing man in my life, Jeff. I finally listened to people time and time again do not look for love, it will find you. I absolutely love Jeff. He is genuine and sweet and loves life and has a smile on his face at all times. Loves me with makeup or not. Laughs and holds me tight. Listens and cuddles. He has a great outlook on life and a huge heart. I honestly say this with this with the most sincerity, I never could imagine my life without him by my side. 

My children, wow. Such a love. Never a word. I never realized how much you could possibly love a human being til I held those precious angels in my arms. I have several songs dedicated to them. I melt when they do so many sweet and thoughtful things. I know now how fast of a temper I have when someone mess's with my children, I can get fired up in a 1.2 second. I guard them and their hearts so much. I will always put them before myself.  Always. Their innocence and love is the most amazing thing I have ever witnessed. 

Love is a  word that can be said or felt, it can be so different to many people. I know what it means to me. I choose to love through out my life. I always want to do the right thing and say things to people that need to hear them. I want others to know they matter and they are important. I caught some flack when I said this saying before, but honestly I don't care. I feel this way. I will live as though each day as though it's my last. I never want to go to bed without saying what I want off my chest. I want to know nobody will ever doubt how I feel about them. 

To all of the people who have made such am impact in my life. I LOVE YOU! You know how you are. 

Love Always,
Bambi