If I die young...

Nobody likes to think about death. I'm totally open to meeting my maker and Lord. I thought today I should definitely write a blog about what if I did die. Is there things I want to happen? Yes!

Here is my songs I would like:
I am Jesus Little Lamb
Amazing Grace
How great thou art by Vince Gill & Carrie Underwood
I can only imagine by Mercy Me

I would love people to sign and write a personal message on my casket

I don't want buried with my wedding ring, I want my daughters to have it. I want a piece of yarn tied around that ring. A promise never ends.

I would love double colored roses, red and yellow. Just like the ones I got on Valentines Day. Red and Yellow roses stand for love and friendship. I feel like this is what I'm about.

I want my bucket list shared of all the things I got accomplished. This is located on my blog.

I want the poem THE DASH by Linda Ellis on the back of my program and on the back of our/my stone.

I want my stone to have two angels with the center being a heart.

True love

August 31, 2013. In walks a smiley guy who orders an Ultra beer at the bar I bartend. Several months pass, I find out this guy is Jeff, the wonderful man I have been dating officially since December 9th, 2013. He has always smiled and been happy and inspirational and creative and such a blessing in my daughters and my life.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cHH-i38iprg I love you this big by Scotty McCreery. I think he absolutely wrote this song from my heart to describe my feelings for Jeff.

We have had so many firsts together and talks of life long dreams and hopes. I couldn't imagine anyone else that completes me like he has. Our hands fit together just perfect. Our kiss is completely perfect. I still have butterflies when I get to see him and I never thought I would find that in my entire life. I always thought those feelings were only in the movies, I gave up actually and just decided I was going to be alone forever.  I have always had on my bucket list, marry my soul mate. I think we definitely are that. We never have to say a word and we just love each other completely.

Jeff has my heart completely. I never have laughed so much or loved someone so much. I now own pink camo and find myself looking at that and always planning things with him all the time and all summer and letting my hair down. I noticed the other day, I'm not so crazy to make sure the house is completely spotless and I get so excited to see him that I just relax. He loves me the way I am. I love all the little things he does with me and for the girls and I.

I love going out driving the country with him, or watching TV with him or movies or making supper with him, just everything. Even playing ball with his dogs and him just makes me smile.

I think before everyone hindered my personality which is a positive, fun, outgoing, loving life, family oriented person and never just accepted me the way I was and loved those things about me and wanted to be with me for those reasons. I feel so loved now and valued as a person and I'm so grateful for that. Our three month anniversary was March 9th, 2013. I was going to write a blog that day about us or him that day, but then I didn't want to be so traditional and wanted to write a blog from the bottom of my heart.

I don't have the perfect words to say sometimes. I just have this overwhelming feeling to start writing a blog and today I wanted it about him. Your days are always counted. I heard a song today from a friends funeral. It just really makes you think how precious life is and how short it can be, no certainties ever. Seems like a lot of young people have died lately and it's so unexpected. I never want a day to go by that anyone in my life ever had to question how much I loved them or how special they were/are to me.

I'm super mushy, true. I love with my entire heart and I'm glad I have someone that loves me back the same way. Thank you Jeff for loving me and my daughters and being you. I will love you now, and forever. You had me at hello.....