The Greatest Gift of All

I woke up with a huge smile today. Laying next to the very most beautiful soul ever, my loving boyfriend. We had the best night ever,  EVER! This is the absolutely hands down the best Christmas I have ever had in my life.  He made prime rib and potatoes and corn and good drinks and laughs and most amazing-thoughtful presents. I just could smile forever. Today....  I drive home. I wrap a few last minute gifts.  When girls finally arrive home, which feels like forever..haven't seen them since Thursday night.  Hearing their shrieks and smiles and laughing can make me smile for the next year easily. I got so many hugs and mom your the best that I still can't stop smiling. I thought a lot today, about the greatest gift. It's hard to put a finger on that. I love absolutely the song by Whitney Houston...The Greatest Love of All.... The greatest love of all is loving yourself. When you do that. Your entire world changes. When you love yourself, you can love everyone else around you. 

I had a great day and night at my dad's and step mothers and then at my moms where all my siblings and significant others were and my nephews and nieces. Lots of laughs. Lots of good food. That is what I love most, making memories with the people you love. 

I read something recently that said, "The kinds of gifts I love at Christmas cannot be bought" That about sums up me. 

I thought about the  song below a lot today as I watched my girls and their beautiful long eyelashes look towards their gifts, towards me or others.  They are always so thoughtful and loving in so many things they do.  I am very proud of who I have become. I strive to be  the best role model and mom ever!


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pbp6W4N1N9s is the link to the Utube Video with Lyrics.


Here is the lyrics:

"Greatest Love Of All"

I believe the children are our future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be

Everybody's searching for a hero
People need someone to look up to
I never found anyone who fulfilled my needs
A lonely place to be
And so I learned to depend on me

[Chorus:]
I decided long ago, never to walk in anyone's shadows
If I fail, if I succeed
At least I'll live as I believe
No matter what they take from me
They can't take away my dignity
Because the greatest love of all
Is happening to me
I found the greatest love of all
Inside of me
The greatest love of all
Is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself
It is the greatest love of all

I believe the children are our future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be

[Chorus]

And if, by chance, that special place
That you've been dreaming of
Leads you to a lonely place
Find your strength in love

I without a doubt believe in living each day fully. You should always say what you want to say and be like Nike and JUST DO IT! I can honestly say I have loved with all my heart. I put myself out there. I want the people I care about to know it and feel it! 

My best gift ever is LOVE. It's just recognizing the many people in my life that are absolutely amazing and I thank God for each and every one of you that are so special to me.  I want no stone unturned and I want to live as though I was dying every day. Every day is a miracle. Every day amazing things happen. Every day you choose to be happy or sad. I choose happy. I choose to love and I choose to make God happy. Love someone like you want loved back. It's always best to take the high road. Always.

This song is amazing! It totally ties in with my live each day as though it's your last!

Utube: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3EbmIeck9uc

Lyrics:

He said: "I was in my early forties,
"With a lot of life before me,
"An' a moment came that stopped me on a dime.
"I spent most of the next days,
"Looking at the x-rays,
"An' talking 'bout the options an' talkin’ ‘bout sweet time."
I asked him when it sank in,
That this might really be the real end?
How’s it hit you when you get that kind of news?
Man whatcha do?

An' he said: "I went sky diving, I went rocky mountain climbing,
"I went two point seven seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chu.
"And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter,
"And I gave forgiveness I'd been denying."
An' he said: "Some day, I hope you get the chance,
"To live like you were dyin'."

He said "I was finally the husband,
"That most the time I wasn’t.
"An' I became a friend a friend would like to have.
"And all of a sudden goin' fishin’,
"Wasn’t such an imposition,
"And I went three times that year I lost my Dad.
"Well, I finally read the Good Book,
"And I took a good long hard look,
"At what I'd do if I could do it all again,
"And then:

"I went sky diving, I went rocky mountain climbing,
"I went two point seven seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chu.
"And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter,
"And I gave forgiveness I'd been denying."
An' he said: "Some day, I hope you get the chance,
"To live like you were dyin'."

Like tomorrow was a gift,

And you got eternity, To think about what you’d do with it. An' what did you do with it? An' what can I do with it? An' what would I do with it? "Sky diving, I went rocky mountain climbing, "I went two point seven seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chu. "And then I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter, "And I watched Blue Eagle as it was flyin'." An' he said: "Some day, I hope you get the chance, "To live like you were dyin'." "To live like you were dyin'." "To live like you were dyin'." "To live like you were dyin'." "To live like you were dyin'." I am blessed. God is good and never give up. That is my biggest piece of advise. You go forward. you smile. You be happy, you do the right thing. You will sleep better. You will love more.  BLESSED

You miss 100% of the shots you don't take!

 One thing I really feel adamant about is trying, achieving and succeeding anything you put your mind too. 100% of the shots you don't take, you miss. I feel like this holds to every single aspect of a person's life. Career and Relationships. If done smartly, what you reap you sow.

I would describe myself as a work hard, play hard type of person. I am honest and loyal and dedicated to the last ounce of my being. I love in my career- beating my goals and striving to help the single people in the world.  In my part time jobs- I love making people smile and laugh and have a good time at the bar, I love helping busy people when they need their houses clean. When it all comes down to it, I love helping others and being there for them, because I care. I have a huge heart. In return I get many notes and words of thanks and told that I have impacted their life for the better and made a difference. I love that. You reap what you sow.

I also believe this helps in relationships. I can honestly say there is a huge difference in me now that is way so different than before with me. I gave too much of myself before without making sure it was the right person  or people to waste my time on. I was a fixer, I always believed the best in them even when I should have just left them alone. I had a friend who told me some good advice. To not lose yourself you have a few type of people in your life. You have the inner circle, your best friends the ones you would do anything for. You never have to worry about them being in your corner. Everyone else, they are acquaintances. Just know when you do something for them nice, don't expect anything back. Don't think bad about yourself if nothing is reciprocated out of you being nice. Ultimately that is why you do it in the first place is because you want to show you care. Just like  friends and relationships. You should never have to fix anyone. They should be complete and ready to be in a relationship with you on any level, wither it be friend or more than that.

I have learned in the process of being alone and really truly opening my eyes, there are people just like me out there. The people that are caring, huge hearts, hopeless romantics, thoughtful, positive and fun loving and just amazing. I have a inner circle of close friends that I feel this way about. I go as far as to call them gems, gems are those amazing people that are a rare find. I also think in this process I have stood back and really watched how people act towards me and others. I believe everyone should take that time to be alone, re-evaluate. What is it they want out of life? How do they want their day to be? Who do they want in it to share it with?

I will tell you what I'm all about and what I want out of this earthly life.  I'm about being happy til my last breathe. I want to be always so happy my glass is not just half full, it is overflowing. I want every person that knows me to know I care so much about others that no-one would have anything bad to say. I want God to be proud of the person that I am. I want my kids to look up to me. I want them proud and to know their mom does everything humanly possible to show I love and care for them. Their my most amazing blessing I have. I want my inner circle of friends to know no matter what, I'm there for them. They don't need to talk to me for a day or a week and just know they are loved. It doesn't matter if they live here or somewhere else. Nothing should ever make them doubt your love and dedication to them.  I want everyone to know, I'm here. I'm open to talk, I will make you smile if you have a bad day. I can't even count on both hands and feet people that have contacted me because they wanted to get more at peace with their life and want to know how I am so happy. Simple. It's a choice. I want that special someone to say to me your amazing, you make me want to be a better person, you are my better half. I want to walk hand in hand with you forever no matter what because I can't picture one single day without you in my life somehow. Those things will continue and will be my reality. You reap what you sow.

A huge recent reality of mine, is I have this person in my life right now that absolutely is amazing. They are beautiful inside and out. They smile all the time, they are happy, they are genuine. People kept saying to me, look at this person, he is a great guy. I have watched from a distance and just admire a lot of things about him I got to hang out with this person one day and just could have this 6th sense about them, that is so very different.  I have kept several of the texts I received in this little vault and I just reread them and smile while I'm alone. Tonight this person sends me a YouTube video song to listen to. I think I sit there and was at the point, do you cry or smile so much your face hurts. It's funny because I did the same thing to him, I sent this song I keep hearing that makes me think of him.  I won't reveal this name. I can say though, sometimes unless you just put yourself in certain situations like grabbing them for a kiss, you could have missed that shot. I'm glad I didn't. I'm pretty excited to see where this goes.

I decided to just put myself out there today. I think my own trials and triumphs have really helped others.

Signing off in smiles,
Love Always,
Bambi

I've missed more than 9000 shots in my career. I've lost almost 300 games. 26 times, I've been trusted to take the game winning shot and missed. I've failed over and over and over again in my life. And that is why I succeed.

Michael Jordan

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