Tuesday, March 22, 2011

THE DASH


I want this for my funeral....best writing ever!

The Dash by Linda Ellis

There was a man who stood to speak
At the funeral of a friend
He referred to the dates on her tombstone
From the beginning to the end

He noted that first came her date of her birth
And spoke the following date with tears
But he said what mattered most of all
Was the dash between those years

For that dash stands for all the time
That she spent alive on earth.
And now only those who loved her
Know what that little line is worth.

For it matters not how much we own;
The cars the house the cash
What matters is how we live and love
And how we spend our dash.

So think about this long and hard.
Are there things you'd like to change?
For you never know how much time is left
That can still be rearranged.

If we could just slow down enough
To consider what's true and real
And always try to understand
The way other people feel.

We'd be less quick to anger
And show appreciation more
And love the people in our lives
Like we've never loved before.

If we treat each other with respect
And more often wear a smile
Remembering that this special dash
Might only last a little while.

So when your eulogy is being read
With your lifes actions to rehash
Would you be proud of the things they say
About how you spent your dash?

Cos that dash stands for all the time
That you spent alive on earth
And only those who loved you
Know what that little line is worth

It matters not how much you own
The cars the house the cash
What matters is how you live and love
And how you spend your dash

What matters is how you live and love
And how you spend your dash.

Friday, March 11, 2011

RIP Princess Potties! :-)

Our girls are now 3 years old, 3 months. They keep wanting to "not" wear diapers to bed and I sorta been scared cuz I do not want to have to clean up peed up sheets. But after Grace snuck her panties on twice in one night. I was like why am I fighting this?? This is what I wanted!! So last night after we get home, they both go potty and say they do not wanna put night diapers on. I am like oh dear... but this morning. Neither one of them peed the bed. They were so excited.
On the way to Papa & Grandma's House. I said how about you guys not ever have to wear diapers again. (cuz they have only been wearing them at night). Laura yells ALLRIGHT! I said how about mommy hangs a piece of paper on the fridge and when you get 7 stickers you guys can have a prize?? They were all excited and said yes! I said what do you guys want? Grace says, I want puppy underwear. Laura says. I want kitty underwear. Mind you now they are like me. Super obsessed with panties. Grace has even took a bunch out of the drawer and hid them under her pillow cuz she loves all her princess panties. I might have created some monsters with my underwear obsession, they are like mini-me's. So funny! So we got the goal in mind. Yet more underwear. I am on the hunt for puppy & kitty panties.
We have came along way from diapers every two hours...to having floaters in the bath-tub..to poop up the back and mama gagging often...going potty in the princess pottys. Which now by the way. I would highly recommned going straight to a big potty instead. So not worth the "almost puking occasions" to pooping in Grandma Legbands trash can....to pooping in the bathtub. (that was this week). To no diapers!
I'm so proud of them and glad for this to be done with. :-)
Go Laura & Grace!!

I'm a poet...Bet ya didn't know it!

Here is a couple poems I found I wrote in 2003.

"Colorado"

The water rushes down the rocky lined path,
As the wind blows enough to rustle my hair
Windows down, the sights unable to grasp
In awe, the beauty unable to speak, only stare.

Tall, jagged rocks to create this big mass
Roads wrap around, twisting and winding
Trees upon trees, large patches of grass
Hope to spot a treasure, perhaps a great finding

Wild animal expectations in search of a glimpse
No footprints or sounds, so I just sigh
As the sun goes down, falls the cloudy mist
The mountains fade into the night sky.



"Paradise"

Seagulls soar over the glistening water
In search of their catch for the day
Sand between my toes, i walk and ponder
So much time to think and relax. No words to say

A treasure.. a sand dollar, what a great find
Although the millions of creatures galore
All together they common with a bind
So divine and peaceful, who could ask for more?

Palm trees sway through the warm air
The sun beats down and kisses the sand
and warms my legs and all exposed bare
All is perfect, all around the gorgeous land

Drifting off to slumber in the netted hammock
Daydreaming of good times, body goes weak
Bad memories fade away, I put them on block
Ocean tides roll in, I take a quick peek.

This is the perfect area for me to unwind
Enjoying the great beauty and serenity around
Nature and landscape, so wonderful and kind
The atmosphere is paradise, no need for a sound.

Sunday, March 6, 2011

All About Bambi........


My favorite thing in the world is my girls. I love the color pink. My Grandma Junge was my favorite person in the world. I love smelly things like perfume, candles, perfume, good smelling shampoo, fresh cut grass, smell of babies, chocolate & coffee! I love drinking coffee. I love that my cat cuddles with me every single night. I love the sounds of my girls laughing and the sounds of the ocean and babies cooing. I love the sound of the rain, the trees blowing softly on a warm day. I love to laugh. I love flowers. I love going to the zoo. My favorite animals are the gorillas. I could sit there for hours and not be bored. I love walking. I love Florida & Hawaii. I HATE snow and it being cold. I love sunsets and sunrises. I love making people laugh. I believe in God. I love animal prints. I love hugs better than handshakes. I love the shows, Intervention, Biggest Loser & Parenthood. I'm fragile. I almost always have my walls up. I do not trust people too much. I do not like when people do not like me, or if I hurt people. When I love, I love with all my heart & then some. I hate seeing people hurt or sad or crying. I love quotes & sayings. I love hgtv channel. I do not like on halloween when people wear devil costumes or anything devil looking like horns or tattoos. I HATE cigerettes. I love getting my hair and nails done. I love sticky notes. I love music. I love music concerts. I love when people are mushy. I love surprises. I love cards. I love gifts for no reason. I love giving people presents. I love gummy bears. I love ice hocky and bullriding. I love babies. I do not like dog poop in yards. I hate animals destorying houses. I hate when people paint on wood work on ceilings. I hate misquitos. I love lady bugs. I love the words fabulous, diva, glamourous, woot, ober, and rockstar. I LOVE makeup. My favorite stores are Sephora, Target, Menards, Gordmans, Bed bath and beyond & Victoria Secret. I like to read. I most recently like to cook. I love when a receipe turns out good. I beat myself up when they turn out bad...aka my onion soup. Most horrible things ever! I love sitting outside when the weather is warm. I love laying out in the sun. Im scared of the dark, so much that one time I thought I saw a shadow and passed out! I'm scared of not being a good enough mom. I'm scared of being alone. I'm scared of never completing all my to do's in life. I love pictures. I love good memories. I love scrapbooking. I hate bad drivers. I love driving in the passing lane. More to come....... ;) Have a blessed day!

Friday, March 4, 2011

The Roller Coaster of Life...


Somedays I seem super happy....other days I'm super sad. Or anywhere in between. I think this too will pass and the much happier days will come more often. I over think alot of things. WAY TO MUCH! I will wake up all hours of the night worrying and fearing things that I absolutly for the most part have no control over. I have a strong fear of ever being unloved or being alone. Dunno why. Just do. I also hate the fact that most about anyone I have trusted has let me down & I never can 100% trust anyone. THAT SUCKS! HATE IT! I'm scared of the dark...and my cat Romeo has been warming me up as I lay down in my lips sheet set on my bed. I'm sure he feels like the gayest cat ever sleeping in my pink & fushia sheets with lips all across them. HA!
I am suppppppppppppper excited to have "rallied" up almost $300 bucks for Relay of Life. Those who helped so far....... THANKS!! Anything to help, even $10 makes a difference. I'm blessed to have such great friends & co-workers that have helped so far! KEEP GIVING! :-)
TODAY I'M THANKFUL FOR: My kitty Romeo. He is 7 and has slept with me everyday I'm home at my house. LOVE HIM & his furry warm body. Unconditional Love! <3